Whats on my mind RIGHT NOW! (uncut)

1. i need to save about 50$ to get something for mom, my neice, heather, brooklyne and amber for christmas.
2. i have a 79$ cell phone payment due on the 19th..
3. i have a 175$ car insurence payment on the 1st of january
4. and i still have to take out half of my pay check for my car payment of 50$ weekly

my name as you may know is Coty Michelle Ratliff, im 18 and i was born on Valentines day my whole life as been a question and i have yet to find the anser..i doubt i ever will. i live with my 60 year old mom and we both just recently found out that she has advancing demeniam a form of alstimers disease. we both recently moved to maceo becuase we had to kick my step dad out due to his gabbeling addiction. we have one car, the one i pay for and a set income base of 650 a month for my moms disability. i work 6 days a week and still only make about 150 a week. i dont pay for a car and cell phone becuase it luxury i pay becuase i have to. im 18 and feel 35. every day i worry about my mom and everyday im never there to help her becuase im either at work or school. i dont have a boyfriend like other kids becuase i simply dont have the time. the friends i do have work with me. our trailer we moved into is not insulated and im scared to see the electric bill for this month becuase i know we cant pay. i dont know what to do anymore. im sinking.

Gangsta Christmas

Santa?

When i was little my mom continued to try to make me believe in santa, she would go so far as to writing "from Santa" on some of the gifts. what she didnt know was the my older brother Chance had already giving me the low down on Mr Clause. what i did wonder was what was the first christmas like that intriduced Santa? did all the parents in the naighborhhood have a meeting in the middle of the night and say "ok so my kids are asking me where all these awesome presents come from, what should i tell them" "well saying its from us is just to saine lets say its from...some fat guy that lives in the north pole, wears a red suit and drives around in a slay with flying deer.. sounds good?"

Growing Up

sucks. when your 16 and you get your first job, your anxious, ambitious and scared. finally you receive your very first personal pay check for all the long hours you devoted to your work. now what to do with all this needless money? spend it on clothes, buy that new CD youv been waiting for or put it in your saving account for a new car. well iv felt all these emotions of having your first pay check and yes it true once you get a job youll always need one becuase youll always have something to pay for trust me. i now pay for my car payment(50$ weekly), car insurence($170 a month), and cell phone($69 a month).to all you 16 year olds, dont grow up to fast...please

Thanks for giving!

My Thanksgiving consists of my small family and tables piled high with warm food. we dont really gather in large pods like most families do during thanksgiving, we like to have the food to oursleves, so thanksgiving isnt that big of a deal for me but there is one thing i wait for every year for my mom to make and that he homemade pumpkin pie. i dont know how she does it but its deffenitly mouth watering. last thanksgiving my dad decided he THOUGHT he was skilled enough to deep fry a turkey for the first time. that thanksgiving my mom had to go out and buy a very expensive premade turkey, and that was the last time my dad cooked....ever

Rain

When i hear rain i immedietly think one, i want to go to sleep, two, where is the closest scrunchy so my hiar doesnt frizz and three, are my car windows down. Rain is a love hate relationship, sometimes you plan a camping trip three weeks in advanced until rain ruins your plans or the day has been to hectic and a nice drizzle would really sooth a streesed mind. if i had to choose between living in a country that rains alot or a country that rains a little i would choose the country that is the most damp, not only becuase i personally like rain but becuase im very fair skined and the sun does not seem to agree with me ha. what more can you really say about rain besides the fact that its water, which newsflash we need it to live, its soothing and it seems as if it washes away the ugly and a fresh morning after rain is the calmest and prettiest morning to wake up to.

Interesting Facts

1,525,000,000 miles of telephone wire a strung across the U.S.
101 Dalmatians and Peter Pan (Wendy) are the only two Disney cartoon features with both parents that are present and don't die throughout the movie.
111,111,111 x 111,111,111 = 12,345,678,987,654,321
12 newborns will be given to the wrong parents daily.
123,000,000 cars are being driven down the U.S's highways.
160 cars can drive side by side on the Monumental Axis in Brazil, the world's widest road.
166,875,000,000 pieces of mail are delivered each year in the U.S.
27% of U.S. male college students believe life is "A meaningless existential hell."
315 entries in Webster's Dictionary will be misspelled.
5% of Canadians don't know the first 7 words of the Canadian anthem, but know the first 9 of the American anthem.
56,000,000 people go to Major League baseball each year.
7% of Americans don't know the first 9 words of the American anthem, but know the first 7 of the Canadian anthem.
85,000,000 tons of paper are used each year in the U.S.
99% of the solar systems mass is concentrated in the sun.
A 10-gallon hat barely holds 6 pints.
A cat has 32 muscles in each ear.
A cockroach can live several weeks with its head cut off.
A company in Taiwan makes dinnerware out of wheat, so you can eat your plate.
A cow produces 200 times more gas a day than a person.
A dime has 118 ridges around the edge.
A dragonfly has a lifespan of 24 hours.
A fully loaded supertanker travelling at normal speed takes a least twenty minutes to stop.
A giraffe can clean its ears with its 21-inch tongue.
A giraffe can go without water longer than a camel can.
A goldfish has a memory span of three seconds.
A hard working adult sweats up to 4 gallons per day. Most of the sweat evaporates before a person realizes it's there.
A hedgehog's heart beats 300 times a minute on average.
A hippo can open its mouth wide enough to fit a 4 foot tall child inside.
A hummingbird weighs less than a penny.
A jellyfish is 95 percent water.
A "jiffy" is an actual unit of time for 1/100th of a second.
A jumbo jet uses 4,000 gallons of fuel to take off.
A male emperor moth can smell a female emperor moth up to 7 miles away.
A man named Charles Osborne had the hiccups for 6 years. Wow.
A mole can dig a tunnel 300 feet long in just one night.
A monkey was once tried and convicted for smoking a cigarette in South Bend, Indiana.
A pig's orgasm lasts for 30 minutes.
A pregnant goldfish is called a twit.
A Saudi Arabian woman can get a divorce if her husband doesn't give her coffee.
A shark is the only fish that can blink with both eyes.
A quarter has 119 grooves on its edge, a dime has one less groove.
A shark can detect one part of blood in 100 million parts of water.
A skunk can spray its stinky scent more than 10 feet.
A sneeze travels out your mouth at over 100 m.p.h.
A toothpick is the object most often choked on by Americans!
A walla-walla scene is one where extras pretend to be talking in the background -- when they say "walla-walla" it looks like they are actually talking.
A whale's penis is called a dork.
About 3000 years ago, most Egyptians died by the time they were 30.
About 70% of Americans who go to college do it just to make more money. [The rest of us are avoiding reality for four more years.]
According to a British law passed in 1845, attempting to commit suicide was a capital offense. Offenders could be hanged for trying.
Actor Tommy Lee Jones and former vice-president Al Gore were freshman roommates at Harvard.
Al Capone's business card said he was a used furniture dealer.
All 50 states are listed across the top of the Lincoln Memorial on the back of the $5 bill.
All of the clocks in the movie "Pulp Fiction" are stuck on 4:20.
All porcupines float in water.
Almonds are a member of the peach family.
Almost a quarter of the land area of Los Angeles is taken up by automobiles.
America once issued a 5-cent bill.
America's first nudist organization was founded in 1929, by 3 men.
Ancient Egyptians slept on pillows made of stone.
An animal epidemic is called an epizootic.
An average person laughs about 15 times a day.
An iguana can stay under water for 28 minutes.
An ostrich's eye is bigger than its brain.
Armadillos are the only animal besides humans that can get leprosy.
Armadillos have four babies at a time and they are always all the same sex.
Armored knights raised their visors to identify themselves when they rode past their king. This custom has become the modern military salute.
Aztec emperor Montezuma had a nephew, Cuitlahac, whose name meant "plenty of excrement."
Babe Ruth wore a cabbage leaf under is cap to keep him cool. He changed it every 2 innings.
Babies are born without knee caps. They don't appear until the child reaches 2-6 years of age.
Baby robins eat 14 feet of earthworms every day.
Back in the mid to late 1980's, an IBM-compatible computer wasn't considered a hundred percent compatible unless it could run Microsoft's Flight Simulator.
Bank robber John Dillinger played professional baseball.
Barbie's measurements if she were life size: 39-23-33.
Bats always turn left when exiting a cave.
Ben and Jerry's send the waste from making ice cream to local pig farmers to use as feed. Pigs love the stuff, except for one flavor: Mint Oreo.
Bird droppings are the chief export of Nauru, an island nation in the Western Pacific.
Blueberry Jelly Bellies were created especially for Ronald Reagan.
Bubble gum contains rubber.
Camel's milk does not curdle.
Camels have three eyelids to protect themselves from blowing sand.
Canada is an Indian word meaning "Big Village".
Cat's urine glows under a blacklight.
Cats can produce over one hundred vocal sounds, while dogs can only produce about ten.
Charles Lindbergh took only four sandwiches with him on his famous transatlantic flight.
Chewing gum while peeling onions will keep you from crying.
Clans of long ago that wanted to get rid of their unwanted people without killing them use to burn their houses down - hence the expression "to get fired."
Cleo and Caesar were the early stage names of Cher and Sonny Bono.
Columbia University is the second largest landowner in New York City, after the Catholic Church.
David Prowse was the guy in the Darth Vader suit in Star Wars. He spoke all of Vader's lines, and didn't know that he was going to be dubbed over by James Earl Jones until he saw the screening of the movie.
Did you know that there are coffee flavored PEZ?
Dogs and cats consume almost $7 billion worth of pet food a year.
Dolphins sleep with one eye open.
Donald Duck comics were banned from Finland because he doesn't wear pants.
Dr. Samuel A. Mudd was the physician who set the leg of Lincoln's assassin John Wilkes Booth... and whose shame created the expression for ignominy, "His name is Mudd."
Dr. Seuss pronounced "Seuss" such that it rhymed with "rejoice."
"Dreamt" is the only English word that ends in the letters "mt."
Dueling is legal in Paraguay as long as both parties are registered blood donors.
During your lifetime, you'll eat about 60,000 pounds of food, that's the weight of about 6 elephants.
Einstein couldn't speak fluently when he was nine. His parents thought he might be retarded.
Emus and kangaroos cannot walk backwards, and are on the Australian coat of arms for that reason.
Eskimo ice cream is neither icy, or creamy.
Even if you cut off a cockroach's head, it can live for several weeks.
Every person has a unique tongue print.
Every time Beethoven sat down to write music, he poured ice water over his head.
Every time you lick a stamp, you're consuming 1/10 of a calorie.
Facetious and abstemious contain all the vowels in the correct order, as does arsenious, meaning "containing arsenic."
February 1865 is the only month in recorded history not to have a full moon.
Fingernails grow nearly 4 times faster than toenails.
Fortune cookies were actually invented in America, in 1918, by Charles Jung.
Gilligan of Gilligan's Island had a first name that was only used once, on the never-aired pilot show. His first name was Willy. The skipper's real name on Gilligan's Island is Jonas Grumby. It was mentioned once in the first episode on their radio's newscast about the wreck.
Giraffes have no vocal cords.
Goethe couldn't stand the sound of barking dogs and could only write if he had an apple rotting in the drawer of his desk.
Hang On Sloopy is the official rock song of Ohio.
Hershey's Kisses are called that because the machine that makes them looks like it's kissing the conveyor belt.
Honeybees have hair on their eyes.
Human teeth are almost as hard as rocks.
Human thigh bones are stronger than concrete.
Hydroxydesoxycorticosterone and hydroxydeoxycorticosterones are the largest anagrams.
Hypnotism is banned by public schools in San Diego.
"I am." is the shortest complete sentence in the English language.
If a statue in the park of a person on a horse has both front legs in the air, the person died in battle; if the horse has one front leg in the air, the person died as a result of wounds received in battle; if the horse has all four legs on the ground, the person died of natural causes.
If NASA sent birds into space they would soon die; they need gravity to swallow.
If you bring a raccoon's head to the Henniker, New Hampshire town hall, you are entitled to receive $.10 from the town.
If you have three quarters, four dimes, and four pennies, you have $1.19. You also have the largest amount of money in coins without being able to make change for a dollar.
If you toss a penny 10,000 times, it will not be heads 5,000 times, but more like 4,950. The heads picture weighs more, so it ends up on the bottom.
If your eyes are six feet above the surface of the ocean, the horizon will be about three statute miles away.
In 1980, a Las Vegas hospital suspended workers for betting on when patients would die.
In 1980, there was only one country in the world with no telephones - Bhutan.
In 1983, a Japanese artist made a copy of the Mona Lisa completely out of toast.
In 1984, a Canadian farmer began renting ad space on his cows

Melissa Ann Shaw

R.I.P Melissa Ann Shaw

my sister, we love you.

As many people may know Melissa Shaw passed away friday night in a tragic car accident. Some say she was just an ROTC nerd but to me she was a friend. We meet in 8th grade when i first moved to Owensboro my first day at Burns middle went by and i had made my first few friends, Becca Marshal, Kim Cooper, Kaybri Ward and Melissa Shaw. when 8th grade ended it was Melissa who convinced me to join ROTC at Apollo. Together we enlisted in colorgaurd and there is where i met Melissa's brother Ben, i dated him for a short time but in the end we remained friends. When Sophomore year came i heard the news that Sargent Parker was retiring, after his last year i quit ROTC but still remained friends with Melissa. We always seemed to have a class together every year, the last time i will meet her is in Mrs Fallons class. Melissa Hated her with a passion of a thousand suns, this made the class a bit more bearable knowing Melissa would always have something cute to say or joke about.

i miss her more and more each day but i feel that her death teaches us many things.

Must watch

in order to make your day a little bit better i have provided two videos. that always make me laugh.

Real Highschool

When your a underclassmen you think of seniors as being this top-notch, popular, stress less student that you dream of being when you are a senior, but now that i have finally become a senior the life doesn't seem so glamorous. yes, i finally know which teachers i can goof around with and i now remembered which coke machines still work at 8 but i still cant figure out what they put in the "hamburger meat" at lunch.

Movies really over exaggerate because iv never known anyone to go into a coma, iv never seen someone

break out in song, and no one honestly looks that good.

in highschool movies at parties its always at a two story mansion, red cups as far as the eye can

see, their is always an open pool in the backyard and people are always lined up for a bredroom.

but in real life WHEN there is a party its either at a nasty hotel (the cadelac) or at sum 30 year old

dudes house that wasnt in the scene in high school so he hangs out with

kids now to feel wanted.

Must Watch

Cat's Clock

Today i stubbled

upon a clock, literally i almost fell over it. it was just laying there in the middle of the hall way, i picked it up and took it to my next class. after class Keira and i decided that the best thing to do with the clock is for me to wear it around my neck like flavor flave (picture on left) what a great idea lol. the only problem we had was finding a string or a necklace to hold it, ofcourse Keira had a solution. she pulls out dental floss and now i sit in mrs matthews class with dental floss holding a clock the size of my abdomen around my neck. what a great day! lol

Avenged Sevenfold

this is the greatest band on earth, i love them so much i have branded my body with their logo. iv been to two of their concerts and they have not been disapointing. thier music got me through alot and for that im forever greatful. M. Shadows is my favorite he is the lead singer and without a doubt an amazing vocalist

Pet Peaves

1) When someone bumps into you and instead of saying "oh excuse me" they snobishly say "excuse me!"

2) When people dont use their turn signals

3) As a hostess people often come in to olive garden and i must ask, becuase of our rotation if a table would be ok instead of a booth. if they say its ok we begin to talk them back to the table. a pet peeve of mine is if as soon as i show them the tabel they are already agreed to having they then say "ohhh can we please have a booth"

4) When people laugh and throw back their head

5) When people leave their mouths open even when they are dont talking

6) Men that wear socks with sandels

7) Men that wear sandels with long pants

Family Member, Influence Me

honestly i wish could tell you someone in my family that influence's me but i cant. im gonna be the first and only person in my family to attend college and have a steady career and i made this decision on my own. lifes not that easy as to giving one person credit for what you have done.

BLog?

Hmmmm this is weird cuase its like a public diary but im sure no one reads it becuase they are too wrapped up making their own blog, soooo um my week consisted of school, work, homework, late night with david and figuring out that i will die alone, its been a good week ha. i have one enemy at this school and ofcourse its my ex. ugh i cant go two steps in this school without seeing his face. we have a class together and the entire time i hold my hand to my face just so i can imagine he's not there lol. all of my friends were seniors last year so now they are busy doing college stuff while im here tip toeing around every corner. its rediculous i have to resort to this because i mean i did break up with him its just weird seeing him and his friends. im sure people that do read this are like " pssst that's teenage stuff, try worryin about bills"

Family(what it means to me)

Being the youngest out of a grand total of 7, yes 7 chaps i would like to contribute alot of wisdom to blog viewers about family but i can't. because im the youngest and my dear mother is now turning 60 soon, it means when i was at the joyful age of....about 7 all my brother's and sister had long gone. they were off doing adult things like touring the world and making babies while i was still adding up 2+2. although when i do see my much older siblings its a party, we share memories and future goals. family no matter what the size or the difference, is a blessing.